2016-08-09 - 1:20 a.m.

After thinking for a long time about how impossible it is for two people to understand and care for each other fully and sobbing because of it, I've had second and third and fourteenth thoughts and come to the conclusion that the imperfections inherent to any marriage I could ever be in are beautiful because they represent two very different people trying their best to be there for each other anyway. This excuses a lot of painful things and it's as true as anything else I've thought tonight. What makes it unique is that it's one of the only thoughts I can believe in right now that gives me any hope for the future, the second one being that things are slowly and painstakingly getting better.

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