2000-05-30 - schwoom!

kids at school who've already had sex and done drugs make me feel like i'm going slow in life. but what if on some levels, they ARE going at an average pace? i guess i'm asking that because i'm wondering how me and rainer are on the physical front. judging from the responses i got from various friends, we're a-ok. it's bad that i need reassurance though. but at least it's reassurance and not dissidence from my opinions.

me and chloe were talking about it (she's more sensible than the others) and she just expressed the concern that she and her boyfriend would lose track of mental aspects of their relationship, though i hope i have slightly more self-control.

whatever. it doesn't matter. whether it's fast or slow, i'm sticking to whatever i'm comfortable with. the only problem is that what is at first strange grows quietly into normalcy, and i am afraid of getting out of control.