2002-01-07 - 10:49 p.m.


when i was quite a ways younger i noticed how the shadowlines of cars would zoom over my feet.

i did not like that.

to this day, i take care to lift my feet so that they will not be on the ground when the edges of car shadows drive by.

sunlight/shadow/sunlight

(my feet try not to be grounded at the /s).

this isn't a rule. i'm not troubled if i miss my cue. it isn't a terribly unhealthy thing to do. but sometimes i worry it could be a sign of a bigger tendency within myself to be stubborn about things of no real importance.

i like to think i've stopped being ridiculous about much of that recently, the kind of ridiculous that serves only to be annoying for people.

when i was about 4, i'd sit outside on the porch and think very hard "is anybody out there sitting and thinking too? if you are, then maybe you're a friend. wow, there must be a lot of friends that i'll never know. hi!"

and i still wonder if that's true. i wouldn't want to be unique in that respect.


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