2000-11-28 - 11 28 pm

a minute off.

i'm filled with want again.

whatever happened to those days when i never felt like i needed anyone becuz i was ok with what was going on cuz ya know, there was this rebirth last fall, back when i was on my own again and that made me cry from so much freedom and i thought i understood everything.

but somehow i'm clouded up and i can't see that anymore or i was just wrong about everything.

all i can think of is that i'm not detached anymore, i need more, i need you. i'm attached to something on this earth for the first time and that is scary.

sometimes i wish we could just get married now and then i wouldn't feel so worried about losing you. but that's crazy.