2001-05-02 - 748 pm

i think its just occurred to me that very slowly my life is solidifying.

and i dont mean that it's getting any better or anything.

i guess i mean that ... things are happening in a way so that someday (funny how it's one word) i would be able to write an autobiography and it would be

linear.
no other scenarios.
this is how its shaping.

so anyone ive ever said goodbye to is goodbye forever (touch and go), anything ive ever done is set in type (darkened lustrous ink). and all i can really do .. is .. keep it going.

things ive bought the past two days:

a very pink skirt
3 water guns
artificial flowers
stereo total cd
ribbon
socks
crystal beads
8-ball keychain
strawberry popsicle (and you can still see the seeds ..)

im wearing stefan's shirt -- the one with the fish on it. he used to wear it freshman year, and he says it doesnt fit him anymore (bah, i think he could .. he so skinny).

flashback to two summers ago, when rainer asked me what i thought of stefan's wardrobe. i said i didnt care, and i guess rainer musta been trying too hard (back then) cuz he insulted the fish.