2000-07-01 - leven forty one

i just talked to rainer's brother. i still can't decide between dd or richard, cuz it just seems like assumed closeness if i go by his nickname.

i think i would like being close to him. i just realized i very very much enjoy people like him, of which i know very few. i can't quite describe it. i just want to take him home and make him my little brother. alrite, he's only a year younger and i'd much rather move THERE, but ah well.

hah, i recall thinking "wow, i want to tell him how great he is" and then i realized "wait, that might sound .. uh ... unnecessary and weird."