2001-01-17 - 1040 pm

and i want to put all this to rest now. i'm not too sure how it can be done. i think there has to be some weird synchronization. like throwing die and getting a certain combination or something. i feel like he and i have to suddenly feel good at the same time and stop saying mean things to each other (direct and indirect) and just stop such things.

if i think about it, a part of me is happier now. a part. and maybe i can stretch that into being more.