2005-04-30 - 10:09 p.m.
The knowledge is rising slowly to the surface of my brain, but lately I've had the inkling that I more than might just have the kind of determination you only read about in books and the sort of love only sung of in love songs.
I have finally found the hard consonants I've been looking for in words. They come off my tongue like solid things, and I'm reminded of biting into apples.
It makes me feel dumb and brave.
Not that it changes anything. It is enough, maybe, that I am certain it's in me. Lately I have felt that you and I are strung far apart on a very thin wire, an invisible but permanent paper cup telephone system. That makes us cups!